Life is tough to understand! seriously! i always thought i was different..now i understand im no "Princess" ..It tough to accept the fact that one for whom you have feelings doent think of u the same way! the SAME OLD! AGE OLD problem! damn it..i was always different in this case uptill now...college and graduation..seen others into this thought it was "Funny" ...always thought it is the need of the age! I am into spirituality ..and always knew that all this was just what the AGE was doing!!! Laughed at others! but around last year sumthing hit me! DAMN still there!!! Strange! how suddenly u listen to Romantic songs, start crying for no reason! Everything the SAD hindi movies show came TRUE! Suddenly, you start believing SHIT that any movie shows!
Strange!
When friends used to talk about it, thought they are crazy! they meet one today and another the next day! thats not how it should be!!
Its like damn sad, when you know, its only your time, energy that goes in searching for signs!!
Everymove, you start judging, whether it is a signal! and spoil everything!
It is just some passing DAMN CLOUD!! Plz pass fast!
Waiting since mannnnyy months! Doesnt pass!!!
Truth is! Again AGE!!! it should pass off! how the hell was i living before HIM! i was normal no? live the same way! We need to crack this age old SHIT!! Im gonna be the one to initiate this Stupid Drive!! :P
Before: With friends, i dun care whos talking to whom, dont bother to miss anyone! dont miss anyone! Party go home! no NOTHING!
Now: with friends, damn y is he talking to her, where is he, a cloud of sadness descends each time i see him talking to another girl,realizing BYE is the saddest thing ever invented by GOD!


I have never missed anyone in my life!!! (of course leaving mum dad n sis, they never can be out of my sight) I am not the person who can make any kind of close relationship with anyone outside home! Never had emotions ! like missing, jealousy, nuthing..in fact sis always teases me saying that u will never have close frds!
I just wud never show emotion!

THEN BAM! all of a sudden of all people , one person u start to miss! u want to be with all the time, want to think about all the time!! Y??
It is a sad state of affairs for me to realise that i am just another one in the HERD!
But there are two ways of looking at it, One: Being practical, as in just because u don have one, now , the age so may be just a wish! after all i am human!
Two: MAy be sumthin like "@@##" exists , who knows! otherwise why should suddenly it change, only for one person.

I mean no one can answer this question! no one ever has!!
untill then , vented out the confusion!
Sigh!
Tada:)